tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55383165546063879682024-03-21T14:37:01.727-07:00MillykinsMillykinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08742849366828846721noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5538316554606387968.post-82490105025466231362009-11-20T23:23:00.000-08:002009-11-20T23:30:13.124-08:00DiscontentI have come to be thinking in terms of the future, never quite living up to the moment. Except on rare occasions when there is something exciting going on in that moment. Be that as it may, I am still spending the majority of my time prior to this event looking forward to it, and saying things such as “if only it were this day and time!” or “I cannot wait any longer for this!.” Of course, this way of thinking is never beneficial. I always speed through life wishing for the future and when the future finally comes it goes past just as fast as the time spent waiting for it. I should spend less time worrying anxiously for the exciting things that are to come and more time cherishing the excitement and enjoyment of being privileged enough to experience them. Nevertheless, I am but merely a human. A human of the female sex I might add, who makes hasty decisions, justifies all she does, and whose mood cannot even decide for itself whether or not to be stable at any given time. Oh, why can’t things turn out the way they should? If I could but pray something and God send forth his mighty powers to make it come to pass, I should be a happy woman. Spoiled, but happy. Yet even with all this complaining stated, I know that through perseverance and obedience God rewards those who wait on His timing. Therefore, I shall attempt to carry my cross daily and walk in His will rather than my own. Forgetting about the future and living for today. Which by no means is an easy feat.Millykinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08742849366828846721noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5538316554606387968.post-14286803477303954702009-09-11T20:10:00.000-07:002009-09-11T21:32:32.953-07:00Row the Boat GentlyI worked today, it was pretty uneventful. But something caught my attention that never has before. A lady i work with always does exercises with the residents after dinner. She sits them in the "middle" and does simple little exercises like right leg over left leg 5x, or touching elbows to knees 8x. Every time she does these exercises she always has them do this certain one where you move your arms as if you were rowing a boat and everyone sings the song "row row row your boat." We always chuckle with her when she sings "merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a nightmare." The residents sometimes get on her for being so negative and other times they laugh as if it were the funniest thing they've ever heard before in their life. Tonight was one of those nights. The residents got their kick out of it and then kept on with whatever exercise was next, but i just sat and thought. Life really can be a nightmare sometimes. In my head i decided the words needed to be something more like<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center">row row row your boat</div><br /><br /><div align="center">roughly down the stream</div><br /><br /><div align="center">scarily scarily scarily scarily</div><br /><br /><div align="center">life is but a nightmare</div><br /><br /><div align="center"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">Life can just be so rough on a person can't it? Just think about all the terrible things that go on in our world today. Exactly 8 years ago today one of the worst things in the history of America happened. The world trade center attacks. People around the world are aborting babies and destroying life only to turn around and act as though life had ever even begun to grow inside them. Some people are living with the terrible mistakes they made. Some people are living with the terrible mistakes others have cast upon them. This world is so full of sin and deceit its a wonder we can even function on a daily basis. Women are walking around rejected from their own husbands who swore to love them unconditionally for the rest of their lives. The same is happening to men whose wives made the same promise and broke it. Sometimes i just sit and ponder all this and wonder how it is that humans can still walk around the way they do. Still in one piece. But then i remember.... God. When i think of all these depressing things that happen on a daily basis the verse from John comes to mind,</div><br /><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><em>In this world you will have trouble. </em></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><em>But take heart! I have overcome the world.</em></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><em>John 16:33</em></div><br /><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><br /><div align="left">Okay God, so I'm supposed to trust you and find peace in you because you have taken the world in your grasp and overcome its temptations. But what can come out of all this? Whats the point God?</div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><div align="center"><br /><blockquote><br /><div align="center"><em>You intended to harm me,</em></div><br /><div align="center"><em>but God intended it for good to</em></div><br /><div align="center"><em>accomplish what is now being done,</em></div><br /><div align="center"><em>the saving of many lives.</em></div><br /><div align="center"><em>Genesis 50:20</em></div></blockquote></div><br /><div align="left"></div><br /><div align="left">Even though bad things happen because there is sin in the world, God uses it for good. He often turns a sinful heart towards him so that he can speak to many through that voice to save lives and win people to Christ. Thank you Lord for your undying love for us. We are unworthy of such grace and mercy and are indebted to you for your lovingkindness. We love you Lord. Until we see you face to face Lord, row the boat gently.</div>Millykinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08742849366828846721noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5538316554606387968.post-36235748172010459282009-08-26T21:02:00.000-07:002009-08-26T21:23:04.291-07:00I praise you...because i am fearfully and wonderfully made.... and also because you've created me with the inability to know EVERYTHING. Does anyone else ever just want to praise God for not giving us all the answers?? I find it comforting to know that i don't have to be smart enough to make my own decisions.... that i can just hand my life over to God and say "Let YOUR will be done in my life God." Today in Philosophy we talked about the ability to "self-govern" and how its very dangerous, blah blah blah... but one of the points my teacher made was that in order for us to self-govern we have to be educated. I think i just breathed a huge sigh of relief when i thought of how i don't have to be incredibly smart to live and exist and to love God and be his daughter. All i have to have is faith in him. Faith in what is not seen or felt physically. Praise God right?! We talked about the three major fields of philosophy: Metaphysics (What is real?), Epistemology (What do i know?), and <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">Axiology</span> (What do i do?). We talked about a lot of big questions right from the start!! and this is only our second class!! I can't imagine how it will be towards the end of the semester. I was a little scared of taking this class at first because i was afraid that the teacher would try and convince me that there was no God and junk like that but my teacher is really respectful of our opinions and lets us speak our mind. I actually feel like <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> learning something <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">haha</span> Well... its time for bed... <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-error">i've</span> got more of the school thing going on tomorrow.... <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-error">bleh</span>.<br /><br />-MillyMillykinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08742849366828846721noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5538316554606387968.post-77229812189745951592009-08-26T20:52:00.000-07:002009-08-26T21:01:11.016-07:00School and such...Okay, so far my first week back to school has been rather pleasant. I complain a lot but i really am enjoying my classes. It's just that its so hard for me to just start back in school and be busy CONSTANTLY! But so far its been okay. I'm in a lot of hours this semester but <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">i'm</span> looking forward to finishing this year *crosses fingers* My classes kind of all mesh together with the topics that we cover with the exception of Math and Bio. Basically in my English class i am learning about the elements of argument and what makes a good argument and how to provide good evidence and so on. My teacher is really nice, he gets off track sometimes but i don't mind at all :) In my Philosophy class we are talking about what we believe and why we believe it and how to argue it and how to prove or disprove a certain philosophy with evidence and how to make that decision. Last but not least in my Psychology class we are talking about things that have to do with social psychology and human social behavior. It's awesome! Because we talk about the different things that influence our decisions and our perceptions on things. They all flow together :) I'm pretty excited about it. My math class isn't too bad and in Biology we get to use microscopes... its awesome! I got to see a cell from the saliva i scraped off from the inside of my cheek. It was quite fun. I have some goofy lab partners but it makes things fun. Hopefully as the semester progresses it keeps getting better and doesn't in anyway get worse (knock on wood) ;)<br /><br />-<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">MiMi</span>Millykinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08742849366828846721noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5538316554606387968.post-82122160903080851922009-08-21T19:02:00.000-07:002009-08-21T19:02:39.667-07:00JOHN MAYER - HEART OF LIFE LYRICSI hate to see you cry<br />Lying there in that position<br />There's things you need to hear<br />so turn off your tears<br />and listen<br /><br />Pain throws your heart to the ground<br />love turns the whole thing around<br />no it wont all go the way<br />it should<br />but I know the heart of life is good<br /><br />You know it's nothin' new<br />bad news never had good timing<br />then the circle of your friends<br />will defend the silver lining<br /><br />Pain throws your heart to the ground<br />love turns the whole thing around<br />no it won't all go the way<br />it should<br />But I know the heart of life is good<br /><br />Pain throws your heart to the ground<br />love turns the whole thing around<br />fear is a friend who is<br />misunderstood<br />but I know the heart of life is good<br />I know it's good, I know it's good<br />oh i know it's goodMillykinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08742849366828846721noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5538316554606387968.post-40497170730016081712009-08-21T18:24:00.000-07:002009-08-21T18:26:33.593-07:00Bound and Determined...I am bound and determined to start writing in my blog and keeping up with it!!! Maybe since school is starting it can be a place for me to filter all the stuff thats happening in my life. Can you tell i don't stick with things much? I am going to with this though... hopefully. haha I can't believe i haven't posted anything since december!!! Thats just nuts! Well... here's to my first post in 8 months!!!Millykinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08742849366828846721noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5538316554606387968.post-78895351867090017352008-12-22T12:49:00.000-08:002008-12-22T12:58:12.314-08:00Christmas Cards<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjibFJgMnQIpNZqyeG5jpNf5E9TWq-4OtPLmBxGIPqFpPF2SKWKrMOxxIbQN_cATWK8kQgdHVFF_NQ-wlEUIZIYoXXylYgrpeyDuXmht2UXxYdEG00mL7y3h6L7GWYDIYkYohuUFSflNIif/s1600-h/Image145.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282721434605099810" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 150px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjibFJgMnQIpNZqyeG5jpNf5E9TWq-4OtPLmBxGIPqFpPF2SKWKrMOxxIbQN_cATWK8kQgdHVFF_NQ-wlEUIZIYoXXylYgrpeyDuXmht2UXxYdEG00mL7y3h6L7GWYDIYkYohuUFSflNIif/s200/Image145.jpg" border="0" /></a> Well, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">I'm</span> a huge procrastinator, so the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Christmas</span> cards i filled out like... two weeks ago, yeah they never got sent. So now <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">I'm</span> going to run to the post office and quick get them in the mail in hopes that people will <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">receive</span> them before <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Christmas</span> :pMillykinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08742849366828846721noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5538316554606387968.post-15077181259121834582008-12-22T10:39:00.000-08:002008-12-22T10:40:21.349-08:00An Official BloggerOkay, so i spent about two hours figuring this whole blogging thing out. I've opened a blog before but had no idea how to do it or what to do with it so i just left it alone. But i was determined to start a blog and learn how to correctly utilize one... so here i am. It is my first post and i feel fairly comfortable with how its turned out. Now i just wish i had a better picture to put at the top of my page. Oh well, i will make do with what i have thus far. I'm very excited about this blog! I feel important now that i can finally call myself a "blogger" :pMillykinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08742849366828846721noreply@blogger.com2